You may or may not have noticed my absence the past month. As my readers, I feel as if I should explain my reasoning.
Things with her are not good.
Before on my posts, you would have read how things with her had been getting better. My blog was all about keeping things positive. That positive streak had ended. Things had gotten a little sour. I felt as if I couldn’t write about positivity and be in the situation that I was in. Nothing was positive about our relationship. I couldn’t keep up with the theme of my blog with how things were going.
I was stressed af.
Stressed is an understatement. Imagine stress but times 300. I was in my second semester of school, the professors got strict with their grading. Assignments were coming out of my wazoo. My dog had died in October, and I was still trying to figure out how to grieve (he was the first family member/close being to me that had ever passed). Then, I was tested with how I handled death again when my Grandpa passed away unexpectedly and tragically. Little things began to trigger me into an anxiety attack and mental break downs. To top it all off, my financials have been disappearing with the ridiculous cost of gas, and the distance I had to travel to school
With all my assignments, and all the other wonderful things I was dealing with, writing blog posts was the last thing I wanted to do. I just couldn’t sit down to write anything.
But, I’m back.
Things with her are not good. However, I know that this cycle of good, bad, good, bad, will continue all through my life as long as I’m a Step Mom. Should I only have to write about the good things about being a Step Mom? Should I only be Polly Positive all the time? No, it’s just not logical.
My school year is over. I have the next few months to get a summer job, work on myself, and write some blog posts.
From here on out, it’s nothing but the ugly truth.
Glad to be back.